last night i went to a rosary for my cousin who passed way last thursday, may 6, 2004. i didn't know anthony that well. he was always big quiet person, even as a kid. i remember him being very quiet at family parties when i was younger. even when we got older he always seemed quiet, but a happy person when you talked to him. i can say i've never seen him sad or even in a bad mood.
about three or four years ago he started having difficulties with his heart. i don't know all the details. suffice it to say he had difficult times, but from all accounts dealt with them without complaint and smiled to those who had concern for his well being. i guess the last several weeks something came about again. this time he couldn't overcome the difficulties plaguing his heart.
the rosary and reading last night was a nice tribute to anthony. i found it very hard to hold back the tears especially when my uncle spoke about his son. he spoke about God putting his family through these 'trials' and how they would endure. it's tough when someone passes away, especially someone so young.
i wonder if i should write about such things here on janella.com, but then right now it is my only writing outlet. please excuse any of these writings if they seem to be out of place. i'm just trying to make sense of times like these.